today

I awoke at 8
I tossed at 8.15
I fussed at 8.30
I agonized at 8.45
I cursed at 9
And so the day began ...

A windy day
A sleepy day
A restless day
A disgruntled day

What good will come out of today?
Babbling of some sort?
About the past and the future?
About the present to anyone who would hear?

Of a celebration, Love is inviting
Of a River, warmth is refreshing
Of a good Book, peace is silencing
Of a discipline, freedom is compelling
Of a life, uncertainty is assuring
Of a Crown, grace is carrying

Just sharing, of all sorts
About the past and the future
About the present to only one who would hear
Oh, what good has come out of today

A sunny day
A wakening day
A contented day
A blessed day
And so the day begins ...

js
Singapore, November 30th, 2007

big enough

Big enough ...
to hear a lonely sob
to answer a silent plea
to comfort a shattered spirit
to reconcile a broken fellowship
God is big enough.

Big enough ...
to touch a despairing heart
to quieten an intimidating fear
to renew an afflicted body
to provide every single penny
God is big enough.

Big enough ...
to feel an aching grief
to carry a bitter burden
to pardon a careless betrayal
to restore a wounded relationship
God is big enough.

Big enough ...
to lift a hopeless failure
to revive a weary soul
to redeem a lost cause
to understand a daunting task
God is big enough.

Big enough ...
to love a reckless rebel
to confront a debating sceptic
to rebuke an indifferent pride
to overturn a godless order
God is big enough.

js
KL, June 24th, 2007

despised

Despised. How you must hate me.
Used. So easily discarded.
Empty. I feel nothing.
Broken. Scars that will always remain.
Crushed. I didn't see the blow coming.
Words. Hovering over clueless, stubborn hearts.
Apologies. Not all is forgiven.
Sarcasm. Please keep a brave front.
Dirty. I recoil from your touch.
Sick. My mind is lost.
7 and 2 years. You throw them all away.
Alone. I crawl along this path.
Desperate. The ground is sinking fast.
Strength. Seeped, drained and gone.
Death. The lure of it is great.
Temptation. A heart and mind unguarded.
Feelings. Grow quickly and ensnare you.
Compromise. Commitment is a farce.
Love. You toy with my emotions.
Friendship. I want no part of it.
Marriage. You have no part in it.
Heartache. It numbs you after a while.
Confused. A disarray of jumbled thoughts.
Companion. You have found another.
Groans. The sound of wrenching sobs.
Turmoil. An inner voice cries out.
Excuses. They fall on deaf ears.
Reasoning. Shut up! I don't want to hear.
Trust. You were so careless with mine.
Truth. How twisted you make it sound.
Glances. Exchanges I couldn't help but notice.
Questions. I have no answers.
Pain. You stab me over and over again.
Guilt. Imprinted on your face.
Anguish. The torment in my soul.
Shame. A burden too heavy for one.
Anger. Every fibre screams out.
Wounds. Heal me and make me whole.
Distraught. Trip, fall and fumble my way through.
Despair. Can there be no end?

js
KL, June 1st, 2007