despised

Despised. How you must hate me.
Used. So easily discarded.
Empty. I feel nothing.
Broken. Scars that will always remain.
Crushed. I didn't see the blow coming.
Words. Hovering over clueless, stubborn hearts.
Apologies. Not all is forgiven.
Sarcasm. Please keep a brave front.
Dirty. I recoil from your touch.
Sick. My mind is lost.
7 and 2 years. You throw them all away.
Alone. I crawl along this path.
Desperate. The ground is sinking fast.
Strength. Seeped, drained and gone.
Death. The lure of it is great.
Temptation. A heart and mind unguarded.
Feelings. Grow quickly and ensnare you.
Compromise. Commitment is a farce.
Love. You toy with my emotions.
Friendship. I want no part of it.
Marriage. You have no part in it.
Heartache. It numbs you after a while.
Confused. A disarray of jumbled thoughts.
Companion. You have found another.
Groans. The sound of wrenching sobs.
Turmoil. An inner voice cries out.
Excuses. They fall on deaf ears.
Reasoning. Shut up! I don't want to hear.
Trust. You were so careless with mine.
Truth. How twisted you make it sound.
Glances. Exchanges I couldn't help but notice.
Questions. I have no answers.
Pain. You stab me over and over again.
Guilt. Imprinted on your face.
Anguish. The torment in my soul.
Shame. A burden too heavy for one.
Anger. Every fibre screams out.
Wounds. Heal me and make me whole.
Distraught. Trip, fall and fumble my way through.
Despair. Can there be no end?

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KL, June 1st, 2007